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October's Look Back

This month I learned how much pressure I could handle. It wasn't because I was put into a particularly intense situation, it was just from my own mind. All of the little things that I had bundled up ended up tying themselves into a knot. It was a knot so tight that I couldn't untangle it: even trying was too much. Eventually, I told other people about it, and they all helped to undo it. Obviously this is a metaphor, however October did feature an unpleasant untying experience for me!

It was the day before a dress rehearsal for 'The Crucible'. It's basically, if you haven't heard of it, a play about the Salem witch trails which meant we were all dressed in attire from the 19th century. That included what can best be described as a circular bib. It was horrendous. Before the show, my friend Eliza tied it onto me (you can see where this is going) and we started the performance. It got to the end, everyone was getting undressed, and we realised that my circular bib …

Why I'm writing a book...

Do you ever have those ideas? The ones that are just so poetically beautiful and float around your head. They just float: no sinking or swimming. And then you realise that they're too perfect to be forgotten. This one thing is the sentence that will change your life. You live by it, and it's melancholy, bittersweet feel will see you through.

It never does.

Instead, it amasses itself amongst other phrases. These include (but are not limited to) something someone said that sounded deep out of context; a random musing you had after you got wet without an umbrella; weirdly sad sounding menu items; quotes from the Oscar worthy, original rom-com monologue that you performed in the shower. These are all things that I genuinely kept for 'one day'. And that day came!

Over summer I had the ground breaking idea of writing a book. There was no plot. No characters. Literally no ideas. Just me, snacks and a laptop. Now, this plan didn't get anywhere, partly because I discovered the…

Two Years of Blogging...

So today has been two years since I uploaded my first blog post. If you're a devoted fan girl- shout out to my girl C.B!- then you'll know I did a post like this last year. It included a whole letter to my future self, so I thought I'd open it now and address all of the main points...

How's you're year been?- My year has been pretty interesting! Since I wrote this, my whole friendship group has changed,which I've mentioned a few times. I've made some amazing new friends and it's gone so fast. So fast and, to be honest, I don't even remember writing that post! It feels like an age agoooo!

What days did you upload this year?- I have been so on top of posts! If only past El had known about pre-writing posts or pre-scheduling, for that mater. I would honestly just sit down and write whatever came to me. Who does that? Why was I not taking this more seriously? Now I understand the importance of professionalism and usually have things sorted with a few week…

When September Ends...

When I came up with this idea, I was walking across the middle of a beach in Cornwall. I was just thinking about my blog and stumbled across the idea of a mental health month. "No stress with El? Anxiety free with me? September Anxiety?" I was doing the face I do, where I crinkle all of my features into the middle. It's my 'I don't know what to do and need to think face'. 
"Stress free September," my Dad said. It was more of a statement then a question: we both knew that was the right name.

I wrote it down when I got home, thinking that it would be one of those ideas that I consider, but never get around to doing. Something I like, but can't develop (WTF- my wednesday fashion series- has been a work in progress since January 2016). Something that's good in theory but I can never fit in (four custard creams in my mouth all at once). Those are the special pieces of my brain that get to live out their life in the memos of my phone; they only see …