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New Year's Resolutions: 3.0

Another year has come around already: I say 'already' but I feel like 2017 has dragged a little bit. All of the timings are weird in my mind. Christmas 2016 feels like last month but my birthday (in April) feels like it was ages ago. Even though my distorted view of the year may say otherwise, it's almost over, so I thought it was only right to do my annual resolution's post. First off, I'll recap last year's...

-Get better at intros: To be honest, I think that this was achieved. The types of posts that I was writing really changed in summer, so it meant that intoductions were a lot easier. Before, it felt like the start of all of my posts were irrelevant (I accidentally typed that in caps, which was very appropriate!) filler before the actual main points. Now I think that everything flows quite coherently, and I hope that you'd agree.  

-Do pilates: This is something else that I can partially tick off of my list! Although I started strong, I kept getting ill…

All I want for Christmas Is (2017 Edition)...

I'm not too sure, but I think that this post has become annual. I'll link the other two if I can find them (last year's) so you can have a look at those complete cringefests. To be honest, I don't even know if I kept them live (editing El says nope): that's the level of atrocity they were at! Even though this post doesn't really fit my current writing style, I thought this could be a chance to redeem myself. So, welcome to my 2017 Christmas eve eve wishlist...



Happiness- Doesn't everyone spend their life in the pursuit of happiness? I think that if you don't, something in your life is going wrong, or has gone immensely right. Wrong, in the sense that I believe happiness should always be had and, if not, constantly looked for. Immensely right in a way that if you're not looking, I presume it's been reached: which would be fantastic! This year has been one with big ups and downs and although I don't really think life can ever be a constant up, …

What Christmas Really Means...

For this post, I've teamed up with Abby from 'Teenagehomedder'. I saw on our group chat that she was looking for someone to collaborate with so immediately volunteered. Her blogmas sounded so great, especially once she had given me some of the ideas that she'd had for what we could both partner up on. One, however, stood out: 'What Christmas Really Means'. It really made me think about what points could be made.

I know that Abby is a Christian, which will mean that her views- from a fundamental stand point- will be immensely different because, for a lot of people, including her, Christmas is a religious celebration. It's a day in which we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ and all of the things that he brought into the world (can you tell that I don't take philosophy and ethics anymore?) I think that the way Christianity looks at Christmas is so beautiful. Holding any sort of view which allows you to add more positivity and depth to life always seems so…

Things I love About the Season...

The first time I listened to Christmas music was the 25th of November. I was trying so, so hard to wait until the 1st but the temptation was too much. Mariah and her Christmas wishes were just calling (singing?) my name and, ever the people pleaser, I had to answer. I flung the Christmas door wide open and let all of the metaphorical tinsel, mince pies and elves spill into my room. I needed Christmas and all of the magic it brings with it. I've officially given in to all of it (there is 22 days until Christmas, after all) and indulged in all of the things I love about the season...

- From- pretty much- birth I was convinced that I hated coca-cola: I remember having it at someone's sixth birthday party and being completely repulsed. However, on the 12th of April 2017 (a date that I am determined to commemorate annually) I had my first sip in years and loved it! Ever since the, I've been addicted to any, and every, type of cola... it's a slippery slope! That discovery led…

November's Essay...

I haven't been feeling very well this month. I took my first day of school- in a few years- on Monday because of how bad it was. Physically, I had a cold. No, I'm not one of those people! (Side note...) It always irritates me when people have a bit of a sniffly nose and then take two weeks off from school. There's just no need! My moto is: have a bit of lemsip and get over it. I'll drag myself into school practically unconscious with a bus stuck in my side and still plaster a smile onto my face. This month, however, I finally admitted there was something wrong.

A day was spent under a blanket with Gossip Girl on. In the end I put 'After Laughter' on and woke up two hours later, confused, wondering why the music had stopped. Even though I felt awful the next day (I always get massive colds!), I went back into school. That day at home did me good though because it was nice to spend some time resting and not being stressed. That's something that I don't do …

Why I Love Dance (yet another essay on it!)...

Personally, I believe that the best feeling on earth is walking into a room full of people and all of them cheering your name. Don't look back through my archives because I've probably claimed something else was better. No matter, I take it all back: I'd tale anything back if I could feel that great all the time. That is how amazing it is. Every Wednesday, and ever Saturday, I can feel that, because that's when I have dance. 

I'm not a late person, but somehow I always over run on the way to dance. Walking into the changing room with 45 seconds to spare and so many voices will light up. Normally, having more than one person trying to talk to me would stress me out but with them, I don't mind. Everything feels different with the girls at dance. You're forced to form relationships at a level of closeness that is so much higher than usual. Forced seems too aggressive a word. Obviously there's a few people I don't get on with but with the group I do, not…

Bullet Journaling...

At Christmas last year I was given a notebook which I decided to turn into a bullet journal. I'd seen all of the instagram Gods using it and thought I'd be able to do as good a job. I was probably overestimating my ability, as someone with absolutely no artistic skill. However, it's been eleven months now, and I've still kept it up!

Continuing with something for a long amount of time has never been something I'm good at, but my bullet journal is still going strong. The whole phenomena seems to have kept the buzz up around itself as well: which is something I didn't expect. If you never heard of the fad (you know, if you were too busy eating your avocado toast) it's a 'customisable organisational system'. What that means is that you can use it as a to-do list/ diary/ planner. Some people- all of the prettiest ones!- intertwine their's decorations, whereas other people's- literally mine!- are just a messy cluster of lines.   


Another thing that …

What Dance has Taught Me...

People think that the one thing dance teaches is discipline. To an extent, I believe that's true because I can hold a pliet for a lot longer than the average person. I, however, will never been a prima ballerina. Partly because I've never done ballet (one of my biggest regrets) and partly because I dance for fun. Just fun. My life isn't Dance Moms, it's more of a relaxed training montage! I don't have enough discipline- or drive- to train for hours everyday but what I do have is enough enjoyment from the hours I put in. 

Almost all of that enjoyment comes from the girls that I spend those hours with. In my class, there's eleven of us and I'm in a nice little group of six! I'd say that something they've taught me is female empowerment; that's a huge thing. A lot of girls grow up wanting to be the best and, fair enough, I did too! However, there's a huge difference between wanting to be the best and tearing other people down. You can be on top,…

October's Look Back

This month I learned how much pressure I could handle. It wasn't because I was put into a particularly intense situation, it was just from my own mind. All of the little things that I had bundled up ended up tying themselves into a knot. It was a knot so tight that I couldn't untangle it: even trying was too much. Eventually, I told other people about it, and they all helped to undo it. Obviously this is a metaphor, however October did feature an unpleasant untying experience for me!

It was the day before a dress rehearsal for 'The Crucible'. It's basically, if you haven't heard of it, a play about the Salem witch trails which meant we were all dressed in attire from the 19th century. That included what can best be described as a circular bib. It was horrendous. Before the show, my friend Eliza tied it onto me (you can see where this is going) and we started the performance. It got to the end, everyone was getting undressed, and we realised that my circular bib …

Why I'm writing a book...

Do you ever have those ideas? The ones that are just so poetically beautiful and float around your head. They just float: no sinking or swimming. And then you realise that they're too perfect to be forgotten. This one thing is the sentence that will change your life. You live by it, and it's melancholy, bittersweet feel will see you through.

It never does.

Instead, it amasses itself amongst other phrases. These include (but are not limited to) something someone said that sounded deep out of context; a random musing you had after you got wet without an umbrella; weirdly sad sounding menu items; quotes from the Oscar worthy, original rom-com monologue that you performed in the shower. These are all things that I genuinely kept for 'one day'. And that day came!

Over summer I had the ground breaking idea of writing a book. There was no plot. No characters. Literally no ideas. Just me, snacks and a laptop. Now, this plan didn't get anywhere, partly because I discovered the…

Two Years of Blogging...

So today has been two years since I uploaded my first blog post. If you're a devoted fan girl- shout out to my girl C.B!- then you'll know I did a post like this last year. It included a whole letter to my future self, so I thought I'd open it now and address all of the main points...

How's you're year been?- My year has been pretty interesting! Since I wrote this, my whole friendship group has changed,which I've mentioned a few times. I've made some amazing new friends and it's gone so fast. So fast and, to be honest, I don't even remember writing that post! It feels like an age agoooo!

What days did you upload this year?- I have been so on top of posts! If only past El had known about pre-writing posts or pre-scheduling, for that mater. I would honestly just sit down and write whatever came to me. Who does that? Why was I not taking this more seriously? Now I understand the importance of professionalism and usually have things sorted with a few week…

When September Ends...

When I came up with this idea, I was walking across the middle of a beach in Cornwall. I was just thinking about my blog and stumbled across the idea of a mental health month. "No stress with El? Anxiety free with me? September Anxiety?" I was doing the face I do, where I crinkle all of my features into the middle. It's my 'I don't know what to do and need to think face'. 
"Stress free September," my Dad said. It was more of a statement then a question: we both knew that was the right name.

I wrote it down when I got home, thinking that it would be one of those ideas that I consider, but never get around to doing. Something I like, but can't develop (WTF- my wednesday fashion series- has been a work in progress since January 2016). Something that's good in theory but I can never fit in (four custard creams in my mouth all at once). Those are the special pieces of my brain that get to live out their life in the memos of my phone; they only see …

How to de-stress...

Stress: we all have it. Whether it comes from a bad day or you're just an overthinker, everyone agrees that it's terrible. Nothing is worse than the feeling of everything just piling up on top of you and getting so anxious that you can't see above the mountains anymore. You seem to have two choices, climb them or just give in. Here, I'm giving you a third options, I'm showing you how to turn them into a molehill. Now that I've finished that beautifully crafted metaphor, I'll get into the tips...

1- Take a step back. A problem I have is that I imagine worst case scenarios and then run with that. Something minor will happen and I'll end up looking twelve years into the future and envision myself living in a bin and eating beans out of a hat. I find it useful to write down bullet points on everything that's actually happened and then analyse them individually, kind of like I'm writing an 8 mark narrative account (my GCSE history people will know wha…

Awkward Things I've Over Thought

We all have that one moment of embarassment. You know the one I mean. It's the thing that, at 3am, when you're just about to fall asleep, your mind enjoys tormenting you with. Mine? A few years ago I was about to do a dance exam and one of the older girls asked how I was. I, answering her question (you can see where this is going) said 'oh good thanks'. It turns out she had asked my age. To which I replied 'oh good thanks'. 'OH GOOD THANKS'.

To this day, I still replay the incident in my head: and it's been three years. But, don't worry, things like that happen to me on a daily basis. For your pleasure, I thought I'd review some of these events hoping that it'll take some of the stress off of you. So, here is a comprehensive list of way's only I have managed to embarrass myself in the past month... 

-To understand this story, you first need to know the details. 1) Our schools key stage three reward system is based on how many 'gold…

Conquering Anxiety

Set up by Sophie over at One Unique, Huddle and Cuddle is a campaign to help raise awareness of mental health issues by using the means of social media. Influencers have teamed up to help this campaign and to spread the word, allowing people to never feel alone by sharing their experiences with you. Huddle and Cuddle wants people to get involved by talking to people, whether it be an influencer, family member or a helpline about their thoughts and challenges they may come across. 

When Sophie first told me that she was working on a project I was so excited; everything Sophie does is to such a high calibre. Without even knowing what she had set up, I told her that I'd love to help and be a part of it... so I was ecstatic when I found out that it was this campaign! I had been trying to talk myself into writing a post about mental health for a while and the 'Huddle and Cuddle' project is the push I needed.

For a while I'd wanted to make a post about anxiety because it's…

Self Esteem

sɛlfɛˈstiːm(noun)- Confidence in one's own worth or abilities; self-respect
Self esteem. It's something that everyone talks about. Everyone has read a blog post or watched a vlog in which a seemingly perfect girl tells her (very predictable) secrets to becoming more confident. I don't have a problem with things like that but I think you need to take them all with a pinch of salt. 

Regardless of how you view their life, it shouldn't have an effect on you. Self esteem, as it says in the definition, is dependent on your own worth. That should be derivative from within and never effected by an external source. What that really means is that other people and what they think shouldn't change what you think about yourself. The things people say to you shouldn't change your opinion, neither should the dream life other people seemingly have.

Notice my use of the word 'seemingly'. Take a minute and consider how you portray yourself to other people. Chances are that …

The Last Days of Summer

Snapchat Conversation (between me and a friend)
El- 'Buzzed for school?'
Z- 'Not really. You?'
El- 'Naah, not at all.'

In all honesty, I was hoping for a different answer. He should have said, 'I'm actually really nervous for September' or 'The transition'- all teens use the term 'transition':fact- 'of years had really got me worried'. It then would have given me the perfect opportunity to tell someone how much I'm dreading next year. I've been running over every little detail in my mind and reviewing exactly what could go wrong; obviously that hasn't helped with my stress levels.

What if the amount of work is over whelming? I'm in all top sets next year so I know that it'll be intense. The worst part of it is that a lot of my peers are just naturally gifted. They don't put in much effort and get a comfortable 70% yet I revise for two weeks straight and just manage to scrape 60%. It's irritating to tire…

The Logistics of High School

I assure you, this is an immensely well thought through theory. My best friend and I have been working on this for the past year and we've both been experiencing the horrors of high school for much time prior to that. But, we have finally decided to share our work with the world. In this time of need (two and a half weeks until most English kids go back to school) it is imperative to ev
eryone that you are blessed with our genius.

Our hypothesis' main body is that high school is a game. Some people play it well without realising. Those are the people who seem to sweep through without a blip. You'll either have a healthy amount of respect for them or forget they exist. Whether making a positive impression or flying under the radar: both of those groups are dominating the game. Unfortunately, there is always the flip side. You definitely know who's losing. They're the people who've fallen from grace in a spectacular way; the people who's terrible reputation pre…

What you Need For Back to School...

It's already this time of year again; obviously I'm thrilled. Of course this is the best part of summer with the perpetual worrying about getting the 'wrong' thing and all of the consideration you have to put into making sure your bag won't clash with your face. I mean, maybe that's not what you're thinking, but now you are, right? Is your backpack the wrong colour for you? I can't confirm it isn't, but I can guarantee that these items are all cute as hell.

Bags:
VANS Snoopy Backpack- Currently, this back pack is sat in my wardrobe, waiting for the sixth of September. I saw it when I was in Cornwall and fell in love with it so ordered it as soon as I got home. My bag was VANS last year and was so well made (there's even a secret pocket)! This one is a dark navy with little drawings of skateboarding Snoopy all around. I've loved Snoopy since I was little and this is just a nice homage to him!
Michael Kors Over the Shoulder- I have never been mor…

The Best Summer of My Life

This will be the summer that I fall back in love with life. It's not that I'm currently out but I feel like I've lost my zest, like some of the sparkle has been drowned out. Honestly, I am still trying to recover from the past school year. Things have been quite difficult. I've made and lost friends, struggled with school work and only just managed to keep myself above water. I had to invest so much into staying afloat and all of the effort I put into every aspect of life made me lose some passion. For me, at least, passion comes from something you choose to do and choose to love; all of the things I did became less from choice and more from sheer necessity.  

That urge to keep swimming spurred me forward through the days and the weeks and the months. I knew that I was only surviving, not really living and that's never what I wanted to be doing. So, during all of it, I promised myself that summer would be perfect. I have been building up an image of a summer so good…

A Quick Catch Up...

Hi Guys,

It feels really weird uploading on a Sunday. I'm actually writing this with the intention to put it straight up so I apologise if it's a bit all over the place. I'm going to have taken this down by Saturday: along with some other posts! I am having a bit of a rebrand of my blog and I think the reinvention has been a long time coming.

For that reason, I'm going to be making some of my earlier posts private. The brutality that I'm going to be removing with will be evident, because, if it's not good then it's going! As well as this, you will probably be able to see a change in format in posts from now on. I would like this to develop because I've had my site for almost two years.

In the start, Runnerella suited me and everything I posted was fitting but as I said, it's been a long time! During that time, I've grown and changed as a person so I feel it's necessary that my blog edits along with me. So, as well as having less posts up, I'…

People that Shaped Me

Hi Guys,

I'm back with the last installment of this mini series. I hope you've been enjoying reading it as much as I have writing; most of all, I hope that you feel like you've learnt a little more about me. Over the past month, I've had so much nostalgia from looking back in my life and thinking about the effect that my experiences have had on me. I challenge you to spend some time doing that yourself so, before you read this, STOP and think back to your favourite time in life. Done that? Good! Let's get on with the post... 

Emma Watson- What a power woman? Are there any millennial girls who haven't been effected by Emma? The answer is no. Definitely no! To start with, she was in Harry Potter, which is an amazing franchise. I've heard that she really didn't like acting in them but those films were what inspired me to take up drama. I wouldn't be getting my BTEC without her! Obviously, there is all of the other work she's done, too. Emma was the f…